This is a continuation of my previous post "Just Stop Trying Already"
I went to the doctor to have some moles checked out today.
And sitting/lying there as he is giving me needles with anesthesia, I suddenly
became ‘painfully’ aware of how ‘pain’ is such a gruesome, yet everyday part of
our reality. And how some people go
through unspeakable pains and physical suffering, due to getting sick in some
way. And how I probably at some point as well will have to face unimaginable
physical suffering. I mean I can only ‘imagine’ what death must feel like when
all your organs are shutting down and you feel the life leave your body.
That kind of pain is something that I have been fortunate
enough to have sort of been sheltered from throughout my life so far. But it’s
certainly PAIN which brings the awareness into the body and in a not-so-nice
way forces you to see what is REAL. When you are in physical PAIN, suddenly all
your fears and anxieties and all your thoughts and emotional states magically
fall away. Suddenly all of that becomes entirely irrelevant. Because it is.
None of that has anything to do with actual reality whatsoever.
You become aware that you are just a physical being and that
all that matters is the physical body and whether it is taken care of. And PAIN
shows that we don’t actually take care of the physical reality. PAIN is a
consequence of the fact that we, as humanity, have always placed the physical
body’s importance inferior to for example our mind. Our emotions and feelings
and our fears and thoughts and whatever it is that occupies our mind. Whatever
it is we BELIEVE to be of the utmost importance. Until PAIN comes along and
shows us BEYOND a doubt that it is not.
We could be living forever. We could have found the antidote
for pain. We could be existing without physical suffering of any form in this
world. But our priorities always lay elsewhere. We rather used and abused the
physical body, and this physical reality, for the sake of our MIND. For the
sake of getting to experience whatever made us feel important and special in
our MIND. And then we have pain, and illness and disease, and death – to remind
us that at the end of the day, who we believe we are and what we believe to be
real in our mind is not what matters. It never mattered. But now it is too
late.
Now we have to face and deal with pain. Each and every
single one of us. I will face it. And you will face it. It is our consequence,
for having taken this physical existence for granted. We’ve only created more
and more and more pain and suffering, instead of finding ways to make it less
and ensure that life on earth is as little suffering as possible.
And we thought we could get away with it. With, oh maybe if
we just direct all the suffering to some people, so that a select few can experience
relative comfort with less suffering. Where some people in this world will
suffer in unspeakable ways, and nobody cares, while others live in comfort and
luxury and have enough money to have their physical body taken care of. But at
the end of the day we face the same reality. One wherein every physical system
has been greatly neglected and taken to it’s worst, most inferior possible
form. So at the end of the day we all suffer, because we did not consider
equality. And we did not consider what is best for all. Or what even fucking
makes sense.
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