Is Existing in Fear 'Normal'?

This is a continuation of my previous post "Who Am I?"

And so it's basically about the point of 'passion'. Cause passion is in a way something 'fragile' or 'vulnerable'. Like there will always be so many 'reasons' that the mind can come up with to make me abandon my 'passion'. To make me abandon myself. Like reasons for why my passion is stupid and why i shouldn't go there and shouldnt do it and why i shouldnt be 'passionate'. Why its better to just hide behind fear and be 'dead' inside. Since that's what fear really does. It kills the 'life' inside you, which is 'passion'.

It's that point of 'innocence'. A sort of innocent 'movement' towards something because 'in your heart' that's what's 'real'. And it will be something that you sort of stand alone in, and that seems to 'go against' the 'status quo' and the 'normal', because simply put, in this world people are 'dead'. People exist in fear and that's consider the 'normal'. Passion as 'innocence' is abandoned, cause it's 'too vulnerable', 'too real', 'too fragile'.

And here I am, having abandoned my passion just the same. Even when I did become aware of it. And even when I did realize that it's the only thing that's real. I just went right back into the 'normal' as 'fear'. Knowing that I 'lost' something, and that I'm not quite 'me'. But not being able to even see 'how' or what's going on exactly. Not even being aware that I made that decision, to abandon my passion.

Cause it's hiding, and has been hiding throughout my entire life, behind layers and layers of mind consciousness system programming that is the very opposite of my 'passion'. And so now I must still walk through those layers. And start understanding why and how I've created those layers and chose to abandon my passion. Walk through years and years and years of programming. And keep reminding myself of who I really am. Of my passion, hiding underneath it all. Because before I know it, I lose myself in the programming again and 'forget'. So I walk DIP, and write my blogs, to support myself to 'be on top of it'.

Live by Principles so you can be Trusted

This is a continuation of my previous post "Checking in with the Real You"

The thing, or the 'problem', with the positive stuff, is mostly that you lose your sense of responsibility. It just takes you away from 'here'. You lose your 'footing' as you start 'floating' in a way on that 'vibe' of whatever energy you're 'vibrating' on.

Almost, and actually very much lol, as though you're starting to exist on a different plane. Or an alternate existence. An existence where all that 'exists' is the energy you chose to seep into. And, it's a 'seeping', because it just happens so gradually. Not like you cross a clear and obvious line from one dimension or reality to the next. It's more like a 'trickle'. Slowly but surely your awareness, and 'you' pretty much, starts seeping into this 'pocket', or 'bubble' of energy - lured in by the call of whatever desire you're still suppressing.

You may think you're being self honest, but you're not lol

So then, how do you measure self-honesty? How do you make sure that you remain self-honest in every moment? That you stay 'here', present, responsible. To basically avoid having to at some point realize that you got lost in an alternate dimension and then have to face the consequences of not having stood in responsibility for all the ripple effects of every action in every moment. Cause, that's tough. To have to stand at that point of consequence.

The only way you measure anything really, which is in the physical. You need to have principles in place. Principles to live by. If you can live by those principles, then you know you're self-honest. Without principles, there's no responsibility for anything. And you'll be directed, influenced and defined by desires.

Principles is what 'makes the world go round'. Literally lol. Every 'law' nature and the physical reality follows is a principle. Because, it is that which is 'lived by'. That which is never compromised. That which can be trusted. It's why human beings cannot be trusted. Because they don't live by principles.

The one principle I abandoned, where I created a lot of 'tough to face'-consequences for myself, was to walk with the group. Where I started thinking that 'I'm better off alone'. And started trusting more in 'myself' than in 'the group'. That may sound strange, but yes actually the group does 'know better'. And if you find yourself veering off 'on your own' - that's ego my friend. It takes a certain humbleness to walk with a group. And that humbleness is what I abandoned.