FOCUS as a Living Word

 

This is a continuation of my previous post "To Practically Live a Word"

Something I’ve realized so far with regards to living my word, is that basically it has to be a CONSTANT focus. That, my mind WILL find ways, any ways, to get in there and distract me and put my focus onto something entirely different. Getting me to believe that ‘oh this other thing that came up is more important right now’, but then I end up just losing myself within all these points that more actually feed into my mind.

I just don’t really notice that really it’s all just a distraction because I’ve become so accustomed to trusting my mind and trusting these sort of ‘impulses’ or ‘points’ that ‘come up’ and grab my interest and attention for a moment. Cause they seem so relevant and important! But what I’ve noticed is that at the end of the day all these points really do is just keep me from living my word that I’ve decided to live. To ‘scatter my focus’ and essentially mess with my decision.

Cause really, it’s within living my word that I am truly the directive principle. I would say that’s about the only place where I am truly directing myself to CREATE. Everything else, in terms of these points that ‘come up’ which I then do self-forgiveness on, and that seem so important to look at and open up with self-forgiveness and writing, are areas where I am ‘impulsed’ by the mind. And where the mind is thus the directive principle, since it’s the mind bringing all these points up, going ‘hey look here, this is pretty important. You should have a look into this point right now!’ …And down the rabbit-hole I go.

I mean realistically speaking, ‘focus’ is like a ‘point’. Where, I am really only able to ‘focus’ on one point at a time. To really give all my attention, all of ‘me’, to this one singular point of creation. And I am finding, with stepping into and starting this process of living words - or, living even just this one word ‘Safe Haven’ – that I am having to learn how to focus in the first place. How to ‘keep my focus’ and not get distracted. And so essentially how to live focus in the context of self-creation and self-direction, rather than it existing in the mind as a tool of distraction.

And learn how to ‘expand’ my focus from the one word ‘Safe Haven’, into living additional words. Yet, where I’m not getting ‘side-tracked’ or distracted from the main focus as Safe Haven, but where the ‘additional words’ are more just part of my definition and description of my word Safe Haven. So, my focus becomes ‘expanded’ yet still focused within the one point, rather than being dragged all over the place from one point to the next seemingly equally important point.

And this approach also aligns with the interview on Self-Specialization. Where, instead of trying to cover and do and look into and consider EVERYTHING, you rather actually hone in on just ONE point, and expand from there. Where even the ‘expansion’ is still only focusing on the one point, but just defining and refining and ‘specifying’ that one point more and more. Kind of like the principle of holographics, in terms of finding the whole in one singular point.

Give Me SEX!

This is a continuation of my previous post "Corona"

What’s the ONE THING that’s got us all by the balls? The one thing that’s our greatest secret and our greatest obsession. That’s got all our attention and all our focus, without us even being aware of it. The one thing we effectively LIVE FOR. And the one thing that makes sure we define ourselves within the mind, rather than being HERE.

Why is it that we seem to have such a hard time seeing SEX as ‘not a big deal’? Throughout human history there’s always been either a complete suppression of it, or an obsession with it. It’s never been just ‘whatever’. Cause at the end of the day that is what sex is and what the ‘placement’ of sex is, it’s ‘whatever’. Like sure it’s nice and yeah it allows you to make babies, but other than that it’s not all that ‘useful’. In terms of for example creating a world that’s best for all.

And yet we treat it as if it is the single most fascinating and important thing in the universe. As if it holds the key to EVERYTHING. Like on the one hand it’s so mysterious and hidden and secret and on the other hand at the same time it is everywhere, in everything we do. So surely it MUST be the key somehow to our very existence.

And it is in a way. But only in the way that we’ve been DUPED. That all this time, ‘sex’ has been programmed in and as the mind to be our single biggest distraction. Through this polarity of SUPPRESSION and OBSESSION. The polarity of on the one hand ‘no you can’t!’ and on the other hand ‘oh but you must!’. A polarity wherein we have never simply accepted sex to be just ‘here’. Just ‘normal’. Just ‘whatever’. Just sort of part of what’s here. And really, not all that special at all.

We’ve never seen it for what it is. A point of enjoyment and expression. But certainly not anything we should be making a big deal about. Cause have a look even at the experience of nervousness, of discomfort, at saying the word ‘sex’ or talking about anything related to it. All the reactions coming from this deeper programming of it within our mind. Look at the fact that we NEVER talk about it, but it’s what actually ‘stimulates’ our mind the most.

Sex has been the mind’s most effective way to ensure that we never truly focus on things that REALLY matter, as this world and reality, but that we remain slaves to energy inside the mind. Oh yes, we’ve been had. Cause I mean, what would it take for us to give up on our obsession with sex? Is humanity even ready to talk openly about it and to let go of that polarity around it? To accept it as just something that’s normal and start focusing on things that really matter in this world?

Get on Top of your Shit

This is a continuation of my previous post "Excitement vs Enjoyment"

I am very much used to 'directing' myself and my life based on 'what I feel like'. I will usually just do things from moment to moment, based on what I in that moment 'feel like' doing. So very used to 'trusting' emotions and feelings when it comes to how I live and how I see myself and reality.

Needless to say, this has always made 'taking responsibility' quite a struggle for me. Because, I'd obviously never, or VERY RARELY, actually 'feel like' doing the dishes, or cleaning up around the house, doing my homework, or basically doing anything that's required to be done in physical reality to make sure that 'things are taken care of' and to actually create and direct my life and my reality in the context of what I ultimately want. Which is to for instance, have a successful career, own and live in a nice house, have a successful relationship and family, and in the greater picture, build a world that is best for all.

Essentially, I was trading in that 'bigger picture', as what I actually REALLY want, for what was pretty much the 'illusion of want'. These momentary 'experiences' as feelings and emotions. Cause, I'd just NEVER 'feel like' doing basically anything that might in any way really contribute to creating that 'bigger picture'. Like literally, what I 'felt like doing' was most of the time just 'wasting time'. Things to 'distract' and 'entertain' myself for a moment. In a way I was very 'short-sighted'. Kind of only seeing what was right in front of me as 'immediate' and 'instant' gratification, rather than 'keeping my eye on the prize'.

Cause to actually CREATE that 'bigger picture' and truly MANIFEST what you ultimately want, you need to essentially ignore any 'feeling' experiences that come up in the moments. You need to be less 'energy-based', and more 'structural'. You need to give yourself 'instructions' and move yourself based on those instructions.

And it's quite the paradigm shift actually. Because I was following whatever my feelings were telling me I should do, based on a 'trust' that 'somehow' my feelings know something I don't. A trust that feelings are like some 'cosmic connection'. Like a link to the universe that's guiding me to my ultimate goal. And I sort of believed that as long as I just follow my feelings, I'll eventually get to wherever I want to be at. But I'm starting to figure out that it doesn't actually work that way lol.

And that, if anything, feelings are more like just 'coping mechanisms'. It's like I am still a little kid who just kind of feels confused and overwhelmed by reality, and my feelings are just how I 'pacify' myself. Things I do to make myself feel just a little better. There is no 'cosmic connection' or 'greater meaning' to feelings.

'I' need to be that cosmic connection and 'greater meaning'. 'I' need to be that which guides and instructs 'me'. Giving myself the 'structure' that I need and according to which I can move myself, so I can eventually create and manifest what I want to. I must abdicate all feelings so I can have an 'oversight' of what actually needs to be done. So I can be 'on top of my shit'.