I Don't Want the Spotlight

This is a continuation of my previous post "Is Existing in Fear 'Normal'?"

There's an interesting 'programming' that I learned to live throughout my life. A programming of 'shyness'. Of sort of the point of 'you should never think highly of yourself'. Don't ever think that you are 'the bees knees', or that you're 'great' or 'amazing'. Rather always sort of 'hold your head down' and think 'less' of yourself and hold yourself back. Like, there's always MORE 'reasons' to think 'less' of yourself, than there are to think highly of yourself.

But then it's interesting because, those that don't seem to have any issues with glorifying themselves, placing themselves on a pedestal and honoring themselves, sort of seem to do it 'for all the wrong reasons'. Like, that's not the stuff we should be honoring or glorifying! And meanwhile, those that are more 'shy' and 'bashful' and 'modest' seem to be possessing certain 'traits' and 'expressions' that in fact SHOULD be 'glorified', 'honored' and 'placed on a pedestal'. But then they will choose not to 'take the spotlight'.

And isn't this the perfect programming though? To make sure that the things that are actually best, are never seen or considered. And that we will only place our attention onto that which sort of represents the 'worst' in us. Because those that actually 'care' and are the 'solution', think they're not 'important' enough and 'don't deserve the attention', and will give themselves all sorts of 'reasons' as to 'why' they should rather 'take a step down' or 'hold back' or 'be in the background', rather than being the one in the 'spotlight'.

And like, you'll even have an 'aversion' to it. Like, "me? The spotlight? NO! No way! Not me! Never!" But, have you ever asked yourself 'why' you think this way? Why do you NOT think you're 'all that'? Why are you NOT honoring yourself and recognizing your 'importance', and your 'greatness'? Is it truly 'benevolent' of you to hide behind 'shyness', or is it just a programming?