To know, "I am Awesome"

This is a continuation of my previous post "The Potential Me vs the Actual Me"

So the solution to having an obsession with 'self-glorification' is to basically just 'know' that 'I am awesome'. Like, stop looking for 'glorification' and just know that 'you are glorious'. Make peace with it and just accept it already lol.

Especially if you're walking process. You're basically walking towards 'glory'. As in, you are walking a process of self-perfection so that means that you're going to be 'awesome' and 'amazing' and 'the best' and 'superior'. So just make peace with it already. Then you can get that out of the way and stop wasting time looking for recognition, admiration and 'awe'. Just know, "I am awesome".

I mean you can't walk a process of self-change, self-realization and self-perfection WITHOUT becoming AMAZING. Becoming the person that you would look up to and respect and be in awe of. What else does 'self-perfection' mean if not to just be the absolute 'best' that you or any being can possibly be. So don't be 'bashful' or 'modest' about it. Just be real about it, accept it, and move on.

A desire for glorification or recognition can only exist in the mind, because it's like a part of you knows that you are actually 'limited' and 'inferior' and so not actually all that 'amazing' or 'awesome'. But when you ARE 'awesome' in fact, then it's just a 'knowing' - that like, 'yes, I'm pretty awesome'. But at the same time it also doesn't 'mean' anything. It's not a 'big deal'. It's just 'reality'. I don't need the 'recognition' or 'confirmation', 'validation' or 'admiration', cause it's already 'here'.

So it's kind of like, if you want to change yourself, you have to sort of accept that you're already there. That you're already the change that you want to be. Cause it's almost like we approach the 'change' from an 'inferior' starting point. Like going, "wouldn't it be great if I was like this or like that?!" But then actually staying within that point of 'inferiority' instead of embracing the change that you actually want to be.

Cause like, who or what do I actually want to be? Don't I want to be 'awesome' and 'amazing', in terms of for example showing human beings what is possible and being a living example of what we can achieve as beings and what it means to truly 'live'? And, don't I within that, want to be supportive in a way that is truly awe-some, as in that brings people to tears because they can for the first time truly see their potential and see a way through all the shit? So don't I then have to accept myself in and as that point? accepting that, yes, I am 'awesome', and I am supportive and I am a 'leader' and a 'living example'. Then I need to accept that I am 'more' than a 'human'. But that is just the 'reality'. It is the physical, practical reality, in terms of how I am living and who and how i am in my physical living. So, it isn't just 'thoughts' and energies in the mind. It's just a 'reality'.

Like, I am only 'awesome' and 'amazing', in the same way that nature already is. And, I've never considered that to be a 'big deal'. I've just found it to be 'natural'. And yet, nature is actually a lot more 'amazing' and 'awesome' than human beings. Nature actually exists according to principles and what is best for all.

So you want to be Special

This is a continuation of my previous post "Love is Not the Answer"

I've always been more or less obsessed with being in a position wherein you're admired, and you get lots of attention and appraisal. And people look up at you and they listen to you and respect you. And you basically get to 'feel' very 'special' and 'important'.

At least, that was always my interpretation of it lol. "Oh that person's getting lots of admiration and attention, they 'get to' feel special and important." And I guess that way of looking at it was sort of cultivated in school, when yeah, there were those 'popular kids' who just seemed to draw all the attention just cause I guess 'there was just something about them'. That 'je ne sais quoi'. So yeah, they 'got to' feel all special and important while the rest of us could just watch in jealousy.

But in the 'real world' it doesn't actually work that way. If you want respect, admiration and attention, you have to 'earn it'. Because, in the 'real world', nobody gives a shit about who you are. You're not 'special' just cause you exist lol. In fact, being 'special' and 'important' is not about 'who you are' at all. It's about the things you DO. It's about the things you can 'prove'. The example that you can live. The work, the effort and the care that you put into things. That, people will notice, and respect. But, it's still not about 'you'. Make no mistake about that. You merely 'provide' people what they were looking for. An 'example' to live by.

So, if you want that kind of attention, that means you will have to work twice as hard as everyone else. You have to put in double the effort as anyone else, and care ten times as much. And forget about it being like being a king or queen sitting on a throne. It's all in reverse you see. How are you going to 'rule a kingdom' sitting on that throne? You have to be the one to 'stand under' everyone. So that you can 'carry' and really get to know what actually exists in your kingdom. And that's not 'glamorous' at all. But yes, people will 'respect' you, because they recognize that you're someone who actually cares. And because that's what we all really need.