Mind Development in the Developing Fetus: A QCK Adventure

 

 

This one's another exciting story, albeit maybe also a bit bizarre, that I've been wanting to share about my 'adventures' with QCK, resonance and the developing baby fetus in my belly.Why I'm saying this story might be a bit bizarre is because it's not like one you'll have heard anywhere before. It covers topics that may be a bit hard to grasp at first, but they're fascinating nonetheless. Topics such as... gosh, where do I begin?! lol To be honest I am also learning about all this stuff as I go. It entails as much my process, as well as the baby's and the process I'm walking with QCK, in terms of investigating the relationship between the mind and the body (or, as I've more specifically described before, how I work with 'resonance'). Again not going to go into the specifics of what 'resonance' is, but I am more than happy to answer questions in the comment section!

Anyways! Let's just get into it. A little while ago, without any clear reason or cause, I suddenly started experiencing abdominal cramps. At first, obviously thinking nothing of it cause when you're pregnant you experience cramps for numerous reasons; constipation, bloatedness, being gassy, the uterus expanding and what not. Then I felt my body going into a state of 'panic', like 'Ok, something's happening that is not normal!' Kind of like a red alarm going off inside. Physically it felt like I was going to have my period, that sinking feeling in the pelvis that feels like things are going to be pushed out and released. The cramping worsened, I started to feel extremely faint like I was going to pass out and things no longer felt like 'they were going to pass', like I just need to 'wait it out'. They felt as though my body was in a state of emergency and I may be needing a trip to the hospital.

While all these physical symptoms were going on, I was doing what I usually do whenever I'm experiencing any pain, discomfort or strange experience in my belly. I check the resonance, or in other words I check the link between the physical and the mind. And here I have a few check points that I go through to determine whether it is me or the baby and then what the actual point is that's causing the physical discomfort. And a point that came through very strongly in the baby's resonance was that he 'wanted out!'. That, with looking at all of what I have been going through in my personal life, the emotions that's been bringing up, and looking at what that will mean in terms of the environment he's going to be born into, he's opting to rather evacuate right now. And I can't say that I could disagree with how he was seeing things. That, sure yes I was 'busy changing' and 'working on' all the issues he was seeing, but unfortunately for me, 'just not fast enough'. That there is such a point as 'too late'. His decision was made, he's not waiting for me any longer. 

So as I was mentally preparing myself for a possible miscarriage, I thought 'Ok, well maybe this isn't necessarily how it needs to be, and maybe there's a point here that I can address with QCK', because I've learned by now that you wouldn't believe how many experiences and ways of seeing things - that, sure, feel very 'real' in the moment - are actually systems in the mind and can be 'deprogrammed'. You're just not aware of the mechanics behind 'why' you feel and see things the way you do and so will accept it as 'real'. With a QCK session those mechanics become exposed and so you're able to more easily let things go or work through them.

Now, a session goes as follows: I will do a lot of 'checking' and cross-referencing points. Like in this case I checked obviously, 'Ok, is this actually a mind-system the baby and me is accessing or is this a real thing?' This cross-referenced as 'yes, it's a mind-system'. Now the interesting thing as well as we go through a session, with each check-point so to speak, is that there is a 'release' that happens. Some of the tension that's been built up emotionally/mentally within the mind-system will relax and release each time a particular layer of it has been identified and realized. For instance, just with realizing that 'Ok, this isn't actually real, it's a mind-system that I can address, direct and change', already removed some of the stress or sense of 'urgency' of the overall experience. The next checkpoint is then of course 'well, what mind-system are we dealing with here?'

Here is where I work with a lot of information that I've developed over the years with Andrea Rossouw, and is something we're able to use as our blueprint in navigating the mind in a session. It's a way of organizing the jumble of whatever we are going through inside into comprehensible terminology that allows us to see clearly and work with the different components of how the mind operates (and makes things seem so 'real' when they're actually not). I suppose you could say it helps 'place things into perspective'. 

The mind-system that cross-referenced here was a personality design of being 'grim'. Grim as in, perceiving and seeing the world in a particularly gloomy, dark, pessimistic and overall negative way. So in short, the baby was actually accessing this personality design, which he'd copied from me, and was deciding that he 'wanted out' because - being in this personality design - he could not see any potential, possibility, hope or opportunity for things to get better, to change and be good. He was seeing his world in the worst possible way and so his conclusion or 'solution' was the worst possible option. So realizing this as a personality design wasn't just a learning-lesson for the baby, but also for me, since I'd been wholeheartedly agreeing with everything he was seeing and deciding throughout the whole thing. I too was living this personality design of being quite grim in how I tend to perceive things. Assuming the worst, rather than creating and allowing space for things to turn out good. This was another moment of 'release', with realizing 'oooh ok, so I'm not actually seeing reality but more an interpretation or perception of it based on some deeper programming that's causing me to see the worst in things'.

From here the session went into this 'deeper programming', which lasted all throughout the evening, as well as the next few days to really get to the bottom of the thing. As in, where does this one 'perception/interpretation' of reality, this one pattern and tendency of being 'grim', originate from? Throughout it all, using my body, and whatever cramps/discomforts were still there, as a cross-reference and a guide to let me know there's still more to look at. Until the last layer had been uncovered and the body felt settled, present and comfortable. In these kind of sessions we really venture into places that have been 'locked away' in different layers of our awareness, so yes it can take a while to open up all of those 'locked doors' as we sink deeper and deeper into ourselves. This one took me on a ride, not just through my own sub- and unconscious mind, but also my partner's - the baby's father - which was all forming part of the baby's already programmed 'mindset'.

Suffice to say that pregnancy has definitely had it's 'surprises' for me so far, in terms of opening up so much more for me in my ability to work with QCK. It hasn't all just been due to being pregnant, I've also just been working with myself a lot more, working with Joe Kou as a life coach, and just cranking my own process up a notch. All that, and having this 'extra perspective' through the baby has added to developing an extreme depth, compared to what I was working with before, as I work with myself and other people in QCK sessions. Absolutely fascinating stuff. So that's all for this 'adventure'. If this is all wild and bizarre to you, that's normal lol. We're not used to working on this level, with resonance, mind programming and the mind and body relationship. This all only opened up and started for me because I've been walking with Desteni and have been walking my Desteni 'I' Process for such a long time. In a way seeing the 'fabric of the universe' as resonance.

I do QCK sessions, not for the faint-hearted, where I take you down deep into your programming and where we have a look at what's at the origin of whatever you're dealing with. Come check me out at Space of Grace, or find me on Facebook. I invite and welcome conversations and questions to better understand all this stuff. Or any inquiries about QCK sessions, resonance, mind-body relationship or mind programming, don't hesitate to send my way.

 

Working through my Resonant Design with QCK

One thing I've found QCK sessions, or my work with 'resonance', are useful for is FEAR. What I mean by that is that personally I'd say I am a very 'fearful' person, and I have never found a very effective way of dealing with those fears. I've tried many things growing up with all these intense experiences of anxiety, insecurity and nervousness that I'd so often go through, not to mention the thoughts accompanying those experiences! Oh the thoughts! lol Fear can really send your thoughts into a tailspin, and it's a rough ride when you're not able to assess what is purely your mind's imagination and what is reality. And that rabbit hole goes deep too. Meaning, the levels on which fear can have a hold on your perception of reality. It's just extensive. And so is the process you have to walk to sift through all those levels and ultimately get to a point of groundedness. And my process has been a loooong one.

What QCK has just supported me with is to discern what's 'my mind' from what's real. To learn and find out that even, and mostly, those experiences that 'felt so real' were actually not reality at all, but were just sort of 'remnants' or 'resonants'. My 'resonant design', made up of whatever memories I've stored in unconscious ways that are now distinctively 'resonating' through my mind in the form of 'experiences'.  That all might sound a bit complicated, but it's to say that you end up taking so many things about how you see and perceive the world and how you experience yourself for granted, because most of it is, well, just not real. And the key is to find the memories that are anchored and stored away and are busy resonating. Cause if you don't, you're always sort of wandering in the dark inside your own mind, in all of these experiences, just trying to find a slice of the 'real you'.

And it took me long enough, but as I mentioned in my previous post, being pregnant has urged me to start using QCK to take on every point inside myself I could see I was stuck on. And that wasn't in the least because just the whole physical sensation of being pregnant and whatever that does to the body (especially in the beginning!) seemed to amplify and magnify many of my mental/emotional patterns (especially the extremely uncomfortable ones). Aside from that, there was also my resolve - with realizing I am becoming a PARENT! - that 'all this ends with me'. I may have been allowing all of this uncomfortable stuff inside myself for way too long, but I will not saddle a child, my child, with it too. 

It really only took a few good, deep sessions with myself to find a way and clear a path for myself through things I've been stuck in within my mind for what seems like forever. At least most of my life. So many experiences I took for granted, believed to be real, and allowed myself to suffer through for so long, now just 'debunked' and cleared up in the span of maybe a few weeks. And for someone who has a 'fearful mind', I couldn't be more grateful that for the first time I was able to understand the mechanics of it all, instead of being swept away by the currents of fear resonating from the depths of my unconscious. I could give things a place and place myself into perspective. No longer thinking 'there's something grievously wrong with me', which is what you often end up feeling and believing when you suffer from massive anxiety and panic-attacks. The solution to all these things was now just a session away, and it's been glorious.

If you're at all curious about QCK and you feel like it might support you, don't hesitate to reach out to kim_amourette@hotmail.com. I'm also on Facebook if you feel more comfortable sending me a message there. Dealing with anxiety is tough, and if I can in any way be a point of support in that journey, through QCK, and working with others the way I've worked with myself, then I am here.

Kim Amourette

Dag 665: Welke Rol Speelt het Resonante Ontwerp in het Veranderen van een Geconditioneerde Persoonlijkheid?

In de voorgaande blog omschreef ik hoe ik in een moment van ademhaling een specifieke voorgeprogrammeerde en voorspelbare emotionele reactie in een situatie oversteeg door in een fractie van een seconde de beslissing te maken om eerder stabiel te blijven in mezelf dan mezelf toe te staan in die emotionele reactie te gaan. In deze blog zal ik dan delen welke realisatie en inzicht zich openbaarde in dat moment, hetgeen ik nooit gezien en beseft zou hebben als het niet ware voor de stabiliteit en het principe dat ik toepaste om in dat moment niet de voorgeplavijde weg te volgen van reacties.

De voorgeprogrammeerde reactie in die situatie zou geweest zijn dat ik mij minderwaardig zou hebben gevoeld in relatie tot X en specifiek in relatie tot haar 'gave' of vermogen om makkelijk vriendschap, relaties en verbinding te vormen met andere mensen en om bijvoorbeeld zomaar uitgenodigd te worden op een trouwfeest van iemand die ze pas had ontmoet. Als ik in de voorgeprogrammeerde gedachten zou hebben gestapt, dan zou ik zijn gaan denken van 'waarom kan ik dat niet?!', 'ik ben niet goed genoeg', 'er is iets mis met mij', 'ik ben nu eenmaal niet goed in sociale omgang', en dan zou ik mij tengevolge bedroeft, minderwaardig en bijna depressief gevoeld hebben.

Aangezien ik echter stabiel bleef in deze situatie was er plots ruimte in mezelf om de situatie te bekijken met een meer heldere blik. En het was hier dat ik zag hoe het feit dat ik doorgaans niet zo makkelijk vriendschap en hechte banden vorm met mensen niet zozeer is omdat ik op de één of andere manier 'minder' ben dan X, die er wel 'goed' in is. Maar het is omwille van de resonante persoonlijkheid en zelf-definitie die ik doorheen mijn leven gevormd heb en waar ik mij steeds hardnekkig mee geïdentificeerd heb.

Ik bedoel, ondanks ik mijn process van zelf-verandering voor een groot deel successvol bewandeld heb, in de zin van dat ik veel aspecten van mezelf heb kunnen veranderen, zoals bijvoorbeeld de sociaal onbeholpenheid en de ongemakkelijkheid die ik vroeger steeds ervoer in het bijzijn van de meeste mensen. Ik ben opmerkelijk zelf-zekerder en meer uitgesproken en heb geen angst meer om mezelf uit te drukken, althans bijlange niet meer in de mate die ik vroeger ervoer.

Dus ondanks dat veranderingsproces dat heeft plaatsgevonden binnenin mezelf, is er nog steeds het 'resonante ontwerp' in mezelf dat als het ware een blauwdruk van mezelf is die het resultaat is van jaren en jaren conditionering in en als een specifieke persoonlijkheid en zelf-ervaring. Die resonante persoonlijkheid is iets dat je als het ware belichaamt op fysiek vlak. Dus, ook al heb je bepaalde aspecten van jezelf op intern vlak verandert, op fysiek vlak druk je die aspecten nog steeds uit. Je drukt het uit op 'resonant' niveau, met andere woorden, op het fysiek, diepgeworteld vlak waar je je doorgaans niet per se van gewaar bent.

Ik was me daar niet van gewaar, van dit resonante ontwerp, tot dit moment waarin ik het voorgeprogrammeerde patroon van zelf-beoordelende en zelf-verminderende gedachten en reacties niet toestond plaats te vinden en aldoende plaats maakte in mezelf om meer te zien van hoe ik besta in en als dit specifieke ontwerp van 'sociale onbeholpenheid'.

Het resonante ontwerp is ook datgene dat op onbewust niveau door andere mensen opgepikt en ervaren zal worden, waardoor het ook is dat het resonante ontwerp van jezelf ervoor zorgt dat je ontwerp in stand gehouden zal blijven worden door de mensen in je omgeving die zullen fungeren als een feedback functie. Dus jezelf veranderen op dat resonante niveau zal dan ook ietwat langer duren dan jezelf veranderen op intern niveau in je gedachten en reacties.